I couldn't sleep at all last night. I tried the new medicine the doc put me on and it just made things worst. I dozed off around 6am and "woke up" around 11am. The thing is, I was awake way before I actually managed to get myself up. It was just one of those days where you wake up with a migraine and your whole body hurts, you just cant move. Wake up a painful vegetable. I didn't have the willpower to sit up.

Rolling off the bed and crawling is not an option. Momo is always in the way. My bed is not big enough, everything is so restricting since I can barely move without crushing the ball of fur next to me -_- It's one of those single beds that kids probably sleep in. Yes, I fit in them, I'm fucking short, okay? I think my bed size pretty much screams "Forever Alone". Fml. Momo has her own bed but she never sleeps or go in there unless I'm not home or she does something bad and I yell at her. Then she'd run full speed and hide in her mini room.


So lets start over again, today started out with too much sunshine and pain. The migraine slowly transitioned into a day long headache after I took whatever painkillers I could find. All over the counter, it's probably just the placebo effect in this case. I don't think I'm even going to bother taking the new medicine she prescribed. I have a feeling all these things shes throwing at me is doing more harm than good. It actually made things worst.

I didn't do anything productive today as I originally planned. I have a mountain of clothes on my drawers and bed I need to organize. My life is starting to feel cluttered again lately, both physically and mentally. I need to clean up this bomb shelter I live in and donate more things. I need to make a call to the salvation army again to clear everything out.


I think if I ever own my own condo or house, the first thing I'd get is one of those crazy awesome huge wall closet organizers they have at Ikea or interior designers do. It's the perfect setup for someone obsessive but messy like me. If only I was rich or had rich parents. I want a room as a closet.


So instead of cleaning up, I spent most of the day dazing out and online window shopping. Almost everything I really want is out of stock or discontinued. Very sad, not that I could afford most of it. I started organizing a wishlist that I'm also using as a shopping list for things I plan on getting in the future. I've been spending too much lately. So out of curiosity I sat down and went over my budget and expenses, based on my credit card and Paypal transactions only. So this doesn't even actually reflect on my cash expenses like going out with friends, establishments that don't accept cards and other small things.


Drugstores/Pharmacy Products: $420
Ebay: $382
Shopping: $384
Transportation: $254
Food: $415
Momo: $75
Books: $125
Internet: $157
Phone bills: $447

Then there are these items I've been eyeing for a while but...
"Order Total: US $ 111.52 + Shipping Fees: US $ 89.28"
The fuck, shipping is so expensive. Sigh.



So I splurged in the last two months on mostly unnecessary things. This is why I'm always broke as fuck. I hate looking over my statements. I better find another job again.

Labels: money, procrastination, shopping, sleep