suf·fo·cate (sf-kt)
v. suf·fo·cat·ed, suf·fo·cat·ing, suf·fo·cates
v.tr.
1. To kill or destroy by preventing access of air or oxygen.
2. To impair the respiration of; asphyxiate.
3. To cause discomfort to by or as if by cutting off the supply of fresh air.
4. To suppress the development, imagination, or creativity of; stifle.
v.intr.
1. To die from lack of air or oxygen; be asphyxiated.
2. To feel discomfort from lack of fresh air.
3. To become or feel suppressed; be stifled.

I take these things so I don't feel. Not really sure what I'm doing this for but I need something to fill up the days. Tonight to celebrate, I'll poison myself. My voice, never to reach you, changes into a sad song. Just forget me, its that simple. This shaking really keeps me steady. Broken tape recorder. Worn down radio. When I wrote this down I was drinking all alone, wishing them all away.



A nightmare is an unpleasant dream that can cause a strong negative emotional response from the mind, typically fear and/or horror, but also despair, anxiety and great sadness. The dream may contain situations of danger, discomfort, psychological or physical terror. Sufferers usually awaken in a state of distress and may be unable to return to sleep for a prolonged period of time.

(Last night I dreamt you still loved me).
It was awful.

I’m surprised I didn’t wake up screaming.


Just live through the day and try real  fucking hard not to look back. Good fucking night.

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